Often I wonder why things are happening and have happened in my life. The set backs, the stalls of what I want, the road blocks and sometimes what seems to just be a complete undermining of my plans jerk me up by the shirt collar with a quicker movement than it took to lay down the plans in the first place. You might relate to this and perhaps have had the feelings of what is the use? Why do I even try when everything seems stacked against me? Nothing I do seems to work out right. I am not smart enough. I am not pretty enough. I am not thin enough. To many mean things go through my head during those times of disappointment to count.
Today is a day of peace, one of the rare moments when I am not raging against the injustices of the world, the inequality and what seems at times just plain evil conspiring against good people.
Looking back on my life, I see many times I have asked for this or that as my perfect desire only to have it crumble before my very eyes. When I look a little farther along the road (sometimes a lot farther) it becomes clear that everything I have asked for has come to me only in a way completely not thought of by myself. There would be no way for me to see what was coming. Most of the time it came through people not even met at the time of the most wanted desire.
Most of the time, what I had needed to dissolve away to make room for the perfect desire. Letting things go that are in my life is not an easy thing to do and it hurts but if that had not happened then could the next part of the plan toward my perfect desire have come? Would there have been room for what I held onto so dearly and the perfect desire at the same time? What I had was not the perfect desire yet it hurt deeply to let it go.
By holding onto tightly, desperately clinging to what we have we can not let the good into our lives. If we are clinging to our perfect desire, happy and content then we would not be longing for something else. If the good is with us then we have no need to wish for something else. Perhaps an expansion of what currently is but not something else entirely.
When we are not happy with anything in our life, I believe a power much more powerful and amazing than ourselves goes to work on the issue. When we are happy with anything in our life then I believe that same power rests, enjoying our creation with us. So this amazing power that I believe in is always with us, always assisting us yet we very often do not recognize the work it is doing.
When we pray that our loved ones be different, the only choice for this power may be to remove these loved ones replacing them with others. It could be in any fashion this happens but to make us happy and bring about what we want it will surely happen. Why? Our loved ones have this same amazing power by their sides and as individuals they are creating their best desires. When we are simply in love with our loved ones then this same amazing power rests joyfully in our feelings of appreciation and love.
In this same line of thought, jobs or homes are similar. When we love our job things run smoothly. Oh we will have the normal ups and downs, such is life, but we will joyfully go to our job. When we do not like where we are, expect something to happen even if we are not prepared for it. Our place of business might fire us, it may have a down turn in business causing lay offs or it might go out of business all together unless we love it and are co creating with our employer to grow it with our appreciation. Wouldn’t it make more sense to voluntarily leave rather than it coming as a surprise? Wouldn’t it make more sense to find other employment on our own schedule rather than the surprise of that unwanted thing leaving our life at possibly a very inopportune moment?
Even when we do not know what we want yet, we are constantly telling this amazing power what we do not want. I see it as having a check list on a clip board beside me. Check, she likes this. Check, she doesn’t like this. Check, she hates this. Check, she appreciates this. Check, she does not appreciate this. Check, this made her feel good. Check, this made her feel bad. Constantly this amazing power is keeping tabs even when I have long forgotten that momentary uncomfortable place in my life.
I love the Marilyn Monroe quote, ”
“Sometimes things fall apart so that better things can fall together”
I think she was a very wise and misunderstood woman yet a perfect example of what we are talking about here. Marilyn wanted most of all to be loved. She was and still is one of the most loved Stars of all time. Perhaps what she should have been telling the amazing power is, I want to be in love and feel that love in return? It was not enough to be loved if she could not feel it within herself. Being wanted is not the same as being loved.
So the gest of this mornings ramblings is, everything is working toward our own version of the dream life, even when everything is falling apart around us. Even wars (as stupid as I think they are) follow this same line of thought. People fight wars because they want something else. What if we all just loved and appreciated what we have? What if we all came to the conclusion that we all want the same thing, our own version of the perfect life and focused on that alone? This does not mean that one other person must change or that we must change. It means that we need to remember that the power unseen’s pen never runs dry.
Check, she likes this. Check, she wants me to change that. Check, Check, Check.
02/03/2015 written by Shonique Benu with love.